I kinda landed myself in a prime position on a new project at work and by a weird co-incidence it happened to coincide with a financial reward due to how much people here like me. And I felt So-Cool because I was like a key person in the team. And other key people call me and ask me questions that I can answer right away.
Trouble is... when the proposal for the project landed over a month ago - it was "like-yesterday" urgent and it has lost no urgency since then... we are technically 80% complete with the job.
I am struggling after 6 weeks of having to get 12 hours of work out of every 8 hour day. I am exhausted at having to work flat out day in and day out. Thrilling and exciting and productive and self-important feelings wear off after the first week of early starts and late finishes.
See, when you are a new person starting your career - people only give you little bits of responsibility... after 2 and a half years at this gig - the responsibility comes thick and fast and people stop acting surprised when you do everything they gave you to do and you complete it on time. It's like the normal way of doing things by then.
They took the training wheels off and for the first time ever I feel like this is a Real Persons Career that I am living but right now, I would like to stop having to pedal so hard to stop toppling this bicycle over for a while.
At the same time, the deadline to find a new housie draws very near and the Wedding Stuffs is getting over due and teh pile of unread books stacks up and I feel the desire to bake delicious things and make dinner for MrT. (don't even ask about Run Walk For Life...)
sigh... being all grown up is tough...
2 comments:
I remember thinking if only I could get
by on no sleep I could get so much more
done in a day. Trouble is less sleep leads
to less productivity.
Well done on the vote of confidence from
the powers that be :)
Good luck with the pedalling!
Keep taking those vitamins
amen
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