Grrrr! Warning! High levels of unpleasant emotions!

I am not in a good mood. In fact I am angry. I had an incident this morning that irked me (irked is my word of the month. Irk... Irked... Irking... I-iiii-iirr-rrk!)
And I have stayed pissed off about it ever since. I tried walking away and having a quiet moment to compose myself. I tried eating a sweet to have something to grind my teeth against. I have tried going for a lunch time walk to clear my head. And now I am trying to stay busy at my desk until I stop feeling angry... or the work day finishes.

I am angry because I was supposed to have a meeting this morning and I prepared for it. Actually I was prepared for it 4 weeks in a row and it didn't happen. Today it was postponed and then cancelled.

I am angry because I have issues to discuss and when I approach the necessary persons, they talk to me about my project and then walk off before I can make my input.

I am angry because I am made to feel like what I need to say is not important. I only lurk outside your office to be in your glorious presence.

I am angry because I need to speak to someone who has gone home already.

I am angry because I am being blamed for something that was mostly out of my hands anyway.

I am angry because I have no idea what level of responsibility I am supposed to have. Am I being overdependant by needing to raise queries, or am I being irresponsible by not raising queries.

I am angry because I asked for something on Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday and I should ask for it today - I haven't got what I need yet.

I am angry because I got an earful for not doing something. I sent an email in June requesting an audience to do this thing. I can't force you to read your emails.

I am angry that I organise to speak to people at an event we will both be at... and then they don't go to the event, but never bother to tell me they won't make it.

I am angry that no one listens to me. I told you there may be a problem with this last week. Why are you presenting it to me as a new problem today?

I am angry that I purposely avoided my friends for three weeks and no one noticed I was missing.

I should try get more sleep this weekend - 4 hours a night is doing me no good.