Thursday, 20 August 2009

You have no idea how great your life looks from my perspective

I have had a few low days of late (b ut bear with me a little longer here). It's probably a cyclical/hormonal/weather/seasonal thing but what really really irks me is that I keep meeting people who seem to have their lives so nicely together. The worst bit is that they are really nice people so I can't even dislike them for it.

I'm the moments when just as I’m feeling that my life is just the bees knees and I'm feeling really really proud about a part of it, someone comes along who is outshining me in that area and it simply naws away at my little piece of happiness. It may even be some throw back from 5 years of an all girls school and the effect of some competitive friends. For example:

I have a great job - You got head hunted
I get paid very decently - You get paid more
I thought I was becoming well travelled - You started travelling long before me
I thought I was adventurous - You went and had more adventures than me
I have some pretty cool friends - You have a husband and cooler friends
I thought I was clever - You're damn cleverererer (never know when to stop the 'er's)
I have a degree - You're half way through your second one
I finished varsity - They were disappointed when you left
I chatted up a guy when we were out together - He asked for your number and forgot my name
I bought my first car - Your parents picked one out for you for your birthday
I got some nice clothes together - You dressed fabulous on my ugly-day

And it's all silly petty jealousy because really my life isn’t that terrible - it's nice - just not as nice as everyone else’s looks sometimes. The envy and coveting really doesn’t take me anywhere - It’s unproductive really. It's not even the inspiring kind of envy where I am challenged to work harder.

So I have made a resolution - here's me trying to be mature - that I must be friends with these kinds of people. Because somewhere deep down I have a hope that if I am their friend then I could be proud of what they have done instead of filled with unhappy envy. Happy for you instead of letting your casual unintentionally bitterness-causing remarks eat away at my own happiness. I gain nothing really from envying nice people anyway - I can't even dislike you because you probably deserve the nice life you have. And maybe just maybe someone else looks at my life and wishes it were theirs...

2 comments:

Helen said...

I know how you feel! I'm stuck in the student-world at the moment while my friends are going out, working, getting married, getting paid...

I think the best thing is just to realsie that the others must feel the same way, otherwise they wouldn't try so hard to advertise how great their lives are!

Fred said...

sorry, I cant help I am so awesome